dream

For the past few weeks, I feel I have been living in a dream. Or should I say it is like a nightmare? Can I wake up from this nightmare? I am really afraid. It is really very scary so as to speak. I hope I can snap out of this soon.

Wild and silly thoughts- Full of regrets

Hmm well still can't get over the incident on Monday of meeting the programme head. V scary. Like i say. Now I am afraid of seeing the tutors and lecturers next semester. Wanted to watch hero initially but in the end never. Because I did not bring along sweater so I was afraid it would be too cold. I think I should start studying for my SMMT and start writing lesson plans now. But i still have not taken any action. By the way I really regret signing up for another 2 years with M1. Silly decision. Should have taken the chance to cross over to singtel.

"Enchanted"

Hey! Finally feel more relaxed after watching the movie Enchanted. Well as usual, initially i wasn't v keen on going de... esp after watching the trailer and synopsis... tot it is silly... but well... turned out better den i expected... Unrealistic it may be, it did allow me to forget all my worries. Mostimportantly, I did not feel numb. I had feelings. I thought it was quite a humorous story. Hmm fairy tale story la... where a 'princess' from the olden times lands up into the modern times in new york. hmm may not appeal to adults as afterall it is too fairy tale la... but well.. as a 'half-baked' adult or rather adolescent... it appealed to me (at least for that 1h 40 min).. i did feel relaxed la... i felt i was finally able to let go.. which is excellent... hee.. but well... more to go... oki talk again tmr (hopefully)... cya... will Hero will be as enchanting as Enchanted....

first reflection

This is the first time that I am posting on this blog. Actually it is more of an outlet for myself so that i can write what i m feeling now... V confused and afraid. My thoughts are in a whirlpool. Is it true that to be able to overcome fear, i need to be in fear? I have been going around in a circle lately... too indecisive and not knowing what i want. I feel terribly afraid. Afraid that i am not ready for worklife, the life of a teacher. I dun have enough experiences. I do not know anything. can i be of service and of help to my students? I feel i need to do something meaningful this hols but wad is it dat i should do? i m not sure... what is happening to me? I feel very worried.